SpaceCowboy's Poetry: Fuck You Liar, Pain, and Harder

You didn't have to lie
didn't have to hide the truth
You already broke my heart
you did it with such couth
Not really,You just held me up
Then threw me down
Now I'm fucking insane
with what I have found

I won't talk to you about it
What is there to say
You're with someone else
So, Go Play, Go Play
Have fun with your life
I guess I just held you back
But, just know this
I won't want you back

I know you don't care
And I know You say you still love me
But with the pain you brought upon me
You'll see the real side I used to be
I'll be a prick, I'll be a jerk
I'll be the one you wished you never knew me
That's how it works

Do something to me and see what happens
You'll never want to see me again
I'll haunt your dreams, I'll haunt your mind
And when I get you, nothing will be left behind

As I think of what she did
It makes me want to cry
She left because of herself
made me want to die
But I know why she did it
Because she is naive
Now she wants me back
But she'll never get me

Do something to me and see what happens
You'll never want to see me again
I'll haunt your dreams, I'll haunt your mind
And when I get you, nothing will be left behind

Now you are toying with me
And I don't know why
When I'm with you, I want to fly
When you're gone and don't say a thing
It fills my heart with pain, a terrible sting
If you don't make up your mind soon
You won't have me anymore
If you wait too long, you'll be crying on the floor

If you were here with me, all this would be gone, gone, gone
I don't know why I can't keep up, All I can do is fall

Skewing perception is an abiltiy known all too well
Chameleon of life and all it's tragedies
Living in my own personal Hell
Need to be lifted up, but there's nothing for me
Love was once something I couldn't live without
Something I needed to sustain my mind
but now without it my heart's still beating
So nevermind, nevermind
Although you can't see it and you'll never know
You were the one I fell in love with, and you'll never know

It keeps getting harder and harder and harder even to try
Just to keep this feeling on the inside
I just want to burst through this web of conciousness
And kiss you for the first time
I can't feel the right time, feel like you want it
I need something to motivate me, to show you need it
And no matter how much I feel it, I can't feel it

I'm living in an everyday combat with society and all it's pitfalls
Losing people I love every day slowly
Trying not to conform with all of this that goes on

But I see this life is not for me, not for me
I'm sick of being shot down, caged in to conform with all of these rules
I'm gonna go for it, I don't care anymore and I can't see

Why can't I fall in love when all I do is fall...

It gets harder and harder and harder the more I try
I keep on going, even though I don't know why
I Need someone, something, somehow
I keep thinking about the future, but I'm living in the now
In reality I feel like a loser, just another kid spilling words out
But I feel I need to find out what it's all about